I read something about “Tulpa”, somewhere on my dash and it just triggered me into seriously doubting my Dissociative Identity Disorder.
Since I don’t really know what tulpa is, I googled it. The first explanation i came across was this:
””“A tulpa is an imaginary friend that is developed to the point it develops its own sentience. This can be best described as splitting your consciousness in half and letting the two halves (with one being yourself) grow into full consciousness again. Another major factor is that tulpas have a ‘form’ which after much visualization practice can eventually be imposed as a visual/auditory hallucination hard to distinguish from reality”“” from here
And I guess the only thing that says I don’t have Tulpa is the fact that I don’t hallucinate any of my headmates. Ever.
But at the moment, I really don’t feel like I have true Dissociative Identity Disorder.
I feel like I’m lying to Daniel.
Aren’t you just making you “little friends” up so you can excuse your pathetic, abusive behavior?!
How has my life been traumatic?
Pfft. It hasn’t! Your most traumatic event was DJ, and according to what you’ve told Daniel, you already had your “little friends”.
What do I have that warrants needing nine other identities to live?
Nothing! You have an amazing job, a supportive family, a loving significant other, a place to call your own.
Why don’t I have a headspace?
Because you don’t need one if you don’t have alters!